ADHD - Thirteen Years in the Dungeon
The Struggle Within: A Journey Through ADHD, Self-Medication, and the Destructive Pursuit of Perfection Introduction: A Mind in Overdrive From a young age, my mind has been a storm—a constant whirlwind of thoughts, impulses, and distractions that never seem to quiet down. It was as if my brain was wired differently, operating at a frequency others couldn’t hear. ADHD was the name for this chaos, but it wasn’t a diagnosis I could easily access. In Lesotho, where support for ADHD is practically nonexistent, I resorted to a self-diagnosis that led to a long, tumultuous battle with self-medication. My academic successes, my company, my family’s pride—these were the masks I wore to cover the turmoil inside. But behind those accomplishments was a person spiraling, holding the facade together with chemical crutches. The Cunning Facade: Masking ADHD’s Telltale Signs At first, I only showed the symptoms of ADHD to those who could help me maintain my self-diagnosis. My impulsivity, inability t